Due Date

Yesterday was my official due date for these girls. It's hard to imagine still being pregnant after having Livia here with us for nearly two months now. She is officially a full term baby now; acting like one too! It's (seriously) music to my ears to hear her sweet little cry echo through the room. She was swaddled, sleeping and growing for so long it is so fun to see her in a different light. For the first weeks of her life I felt as if I wasn't her mommy; unable to care for her fully and give her the kind of love and attention every newborn needs.

Now, as she sits by my side, swaying back and forth in her swing, I finally feel like her mommy. I can meet her needs on my own and shower her with love and affection all day long.

I can tell you that this is not how I imagined this day to be. In fact, this is not what I would wish for this day to be. I would trade it all in to have Amelie Marie and Livia Joy swinging side by side. BUT, somehow in the midst of it, I feel the mystery of God in his sovreignty whispering that he loves me and he gives me what I need. Amen.