There are times when I'm overwhelmed by the beauty of this little girl. This little girl that has fought so hard to be strong for her mommy and for her family. Her beauty is both inside and out. Each day I get a little glimpse into her sweet spirit and it's beautiful. So beautiful it hurts. It hurts to think of what could have been. It hurts to think that her sister can't be here to share in this beauty. Each time I look into her eyes and she looks back at me I am overcome. It's hard. It hurts. It stretches every part of me to continue to live in faith that God is with me, holding me close. Each day I continue to question his ways, his heart and this path he has chosen for me to walk. Each day I battle through a myriad of intense emotions. My heart is so broken and yet I feel such peace. I continue to feel such joy over this precious life. He didn't have to give me this life and yet I sit here, staring at this beauty. And it hurts.
5 comments:
Sweet and touching words, Amy. We still pray for you all so often.
She is totally beautiful! Love you!
Hi,Amy - I have been reading your blog for awhile now. Your postings so reflect what our life can be like as a Christian - resting in the comforting arms of our Lord during the most difficult times. Livia is so precious and beautiful! My mother's heart aches with yours and I am lifting you up in prayer as you journey through the grief of losing Amelia. Love, Kim Peterson
Grammy and Papa love this picture!
We're so thankful for the gift of Amelie's life and the joy she brings to her family's heart. It's such a blessing to see her thriving, enjoying her life with Mommy, Daddy, and big brother Micah! Her sister, Amelie, and Auntie Breanna are rooting for her from heaven. We know it!
It hurts my heart, too. Amy, you are amazing to hold BOTH the joy and grief together - and both come through beautifully in your writing.
Livia is BEAUTIFUL. We need to see her (and you) soon so that Alethea can give her hugs (now that she is finally BIG ENOUGH to get hugs from Alethea...whose hugs are a lot of love and a little danger) :-)
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