I am still at risk for pre-term labor at this point and it is extremely important for Livie to stay put for at least another 5 weeks. Please pray with us for 5 more weeks of healthy pregnancy and continued strength.
We are so thankful that our baby girl is healthy and thriving right now, but the reality of her sister's death is still painful and weighs on our hearts each day. We so desperately want to hold our little girl and say goodbye, but the truth is that we must wait until that day when we will embrace life and death in one moment. I don't think anything will ever be enough to prepare us for that day. We know that God's grace is enough to get us through and that brings us comfort.
As I continue through this pregnancy I am in a constant battle with my emotions. The typical emotions associated with pregnancy are now mixed with atypical emotions and I find myself struggling between pain and sorrow, excitement and joy. When I look back at pictures from the past few months I can't help but weep as I think of what it felt like to have two little girls growing inside of me. As I begin to prepare for Livia I can't help but think of Mia and how the past few months have been spent dreaming, creating and planning to welcome two baby girls into our home and our family. We have loved them so completely and embraced them as part of our family from the beginning and it is so hard to let go.
Somebody told me that although this pregnancy will continue and it will be hard I am still carrying my twin girls and making memories with my twin girls. I will always be a mother to Livie and Mia and Mia will always be a part of our story as a family. It will never be easy to look at pictures of my pregnancy, but I will embrace it for what it is and I will be the mother that I am because of this.
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Great post, Amy. I so appreciate your candor in discussing everything you're experiencing. You have a very good outlook on this. We're continuing to pray for you, Chris, Micah, and Livie.
that was beautiful amy. crying and praying for you again this evening. it is true that you will ALWAYS have twin girls.
Hi Amy,
we are all SO rooting for Livie to be safe and healthy and go full-term or close to it and be a total joy to your lives...and for you to experience God's peace and presence. Thank you for sharing your heart with the rest of us.
love, uncle rob
Love you, Amy. Still praying for you all the time. The picture at the end is wonderful :)
Thanks for this beautiful update, Ames. So glad that Livia is growing and developing well...will pray for continued protection for both her and you.
You are an incredible wife and mother and I am so proud to call you my friend. Love you!!
So beautiful....you are loving so well. Praying for you!
Dear Chris and Amy,
I just want to say how sorry we are about the loss of Mia. I am struck by what you've written because in the midst of blinding pain, you have managed to keep clear sight of who God is. Faith is only faith in blindness; submission is only submission when you would have had it done differently. Pain does not equal weak faith; it reveals strong faith. I am in awe of God's work in you and am praying for your comfort, strength and healing. May the only One who can hold you all together in every way.
Love,
Betsy (for Jason and Bekkah)
Amy, so glad to hear Livie is doing so well. We praise God for that! Your strength and faith in who God is is so admirable to me. We will continue to pray that Livie stays inside for at least another 5 weeks. And we will continue to pray for your strength to endure, too. Love you guys!
I love you Amy and my heart longs to be of comfort to you, But since my arms can't reach to Boston I will leave you in the hands of someone much more capable...the one that made you and loves you more passionately than anyone ever could.
(I know another little girl up there who is happy to have a little piece of her sister to praise God with her for eternity)Christs spirit is interceding on my behalf where my words fail you in prayer. love -lorena
Rejoicing with you guys in the good news about Livie! Our God is a God of miracles and I know He'll continue to work them through this situation.
I was listening to a playlist from one of the blogs I read and the song "Glory Baby" by Watermark struck me as being something you might find comfort in right now. It's from Angie's blog at "Bring the Rain". I'm sure you've heard of it, but if not definitely check it out because she and her hubbie (who's in the group Selah) went through your situation a year ago (only minus the twins part).
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